Limite

They’re behind me, they’re everywhere...
tapping my shoulders and whispering I belong nowhere...
So what do I do?
When I feel them watching my every move, threatening to keep me captive once again.
I don’t want to
I’m able to breathe again, relieved to not feel their hands holding my shoulders down...
I’m under water but free, I’m no longer watching the surface with anything else but my face on the surface to allow me to breathe.
At least not anymore...
And the rest? They’re always asking where they are, telling me at some stage they will come back and disconnect my ventilator. Waiting for my heartbeat monitor to finally show I have no pulse. No one believes me when I say “I am not them, and they are not me” anymore. To the rest I’ve been the girl who cries wolf, but when the wolf comes around it attacks everyone else...Except me, he approaches me, taunts me with his teeth and I’m left helpless watching in trepidation.
I’m feeling their hands on my shoulders, they’re heavy in sadness. They make me feel everything so intensely, that I’m eventually exhausted. 
Please, don’t let them get to me again.
I don’t like myself when I’m with them...